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and as you pass, touch me with your breath...
at once my lips will part!
On my glum face, where perhaps
a dark dream has rested for too long a time,
let your gaze lift it like a star...
at once my dream
will be radiant!
Then on my lips, where there flits a brilliance,
a flash of love that the Gods have kept pure,
place a kiss, and transform from angel into a prince...
at once my soul
will awaken!
never to name him aloud,
but faithfully always to wait for him
and love him.
To open my arms and, tired of waiting,
to close them on nothing,
but still always to stretch them out to him
and to love him.
To only be able to stretch them out to him,
and then to be consumed in tears,
but always to shed these tears,
always to love him.
Never to see or hear him,
never to name him aloud,
but with a love that grows ever more tender,
always to love him.
- Location:@ my room
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:*le sigh*
Things like this. . .confuse me a lot!
To know that any day you could just. . .vanish
Any day now. . .I could just become an object from the past,
You could just put me on a shelf and leave me to dust.
To know the definition of 'temporary' well...a little bit too well.
Why?
Just someone, while he is passing by, decided to water the flowers that were left to wilt.
Am I your anything?
- Mood:
worried - Music:AFI - Two of a Kind | Powered by Last.fm
I'll get to sing 'Durch Zärtlichkeit und Schmeicheln' tomorrow...yay.
fun, fun, fun.
Piano lessons are going well,
I still need to learn minor scales...grrrr.
I never thought I'd be having such a great summer.
I'm learning so much!!!
I'm having so much fun.
oh...and I never thought I'd find a muse...I did.
- Location:@ CMPR
- Mood: surprised
- Music:Franz Schubert - Rosamunde - Ballett Musik Nr.I (Attacca) | Powered by Last.fm
omgomgomgomg!...I've been having the greatest days ever. *le sigh* I like him. This smells like disaster in the making!
I think I fall too fast. Oh, well... I don't give a damn anymore! If it makes me laugh, I'll laugh... If it makes me cry, I'll cry. This is what its all about. Enjoy the moment, don't take the future seriously.
I'm realizing that... as much as I want... I'm 20, I won't get married for a while...
- Location:@ kitchen
- Mood:
flirty - Music:Rose - sombre con | Powered by Last.fm
OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... I JUST HAD AN ORGASM...I LOVE THE ART DIRECTION!!!
- Location:@ my bed
- Mood: horny
Sometimes, you just have to go with the flow. . .
Sometimes. . .you just have to improvise.
Could this be so much more than what I'm just wanting to see from it?
Should I try it?
Should I leave behind what left me behind?
I hate these things related to other people. . .
TODO ES TAN INCIERTO!...TAN AL AZAR...TAN RANDOM!!!
- Location:@ my bed
- Mood: curious
- Music:Közi - Honey Vanity
In this year I've experienced so much. I've lived! I now know what life is.
I feel like...a woman...hahaha...sounds creepy, but I really feel like that.
. . .I can do everything!
- Location:@ kitchen
- Mood:
artistic - Music:Pigstar - Hana=Kimi
This world may have failed you...let me make it ok...It has failed me too, I know...
I wish I could heal you, be your escape...
Get lost in me...
This is harder than I thought...The urge to love you without limits, the urge to be your lover, the urge to call you mine, the urge for you to take me and call me yours, only yours.
To have you close and miss your touch, to hug you and thirst for a kiss...my love, how I need you...how I miss you.
***
I think by now, you may have noticed I broke up with my boyfriend...well, HE BROKE UP WITH ME... yeah, it sucks. I've always been a very independent person. i don't NEED him to function, but he was my escape. He made me grow so much. I wanted to keep growing with him.
We decided to be friends, and we still go out and talk a lot, he's my best friend. . .but sometimes, I just can't help but to see him as mine.
When a person knows what he wants, its hard to change it. You can try, you can even fool yourself into believing you found another thing...in the end, you just hurt yourself and others. He's a workoholic, he just works, he studies, he works...that's his life...me, I wasn't a priority to him and he found out about that. . .after a year and a half.
I guess...I'll play the friend part for now. but I KNOW he's the one for me.
- Music:Natalie Dessay - Ophelia's Mad Scene (Thomas' Hamlet)
I wish I could go back in time and fix myself in time, I wish I could go back in time and have you know how much I appreciate you, I wish I could go back in time and tell you ''It's ok, I love you, I support what you're doing, I understand, I love you'', I wish I could go back in time and not be so selfish, I wish I could go back in time and work it, I wish I could go back in time and comfort you, I wish I could go back in time and not take you for granted...
I've never felt like this before...I feel I wasted the time I had with you...I feel there was so much more I could have done with you, to you...I was just standing there...I never appreciated you...I never gave you what you deserved...fuck, I was so selfish!...I'm so sorry
I hope you change your mind because I'd be so perfect now...no one will love you like I do, no one will understand you like I do...I know...
I'll always be here for you, I'll always be waiting for you...If I can't be your girl, I'll be your friend...
Sounds stupid, but it isn't...I'm young enough to wait.
- Location:my room @ Miramar
- Mood:
calm
All the flowers in my garden have wilted,
my love, you left and took their life with you.
Now, what remains is a cold space where tears drown love.
A black hole, sucking all my light.
Look at my garden, it's no longer beautiful.
It's a mess.
Adieu Monsieur.
Will I learn how to love again?, Will I stop nailing myself to your cross?, Will I ever hate you?
How dumb I was to fool myself again into believing I could be loved.
No one loves the miserable.
I'll never deserve to be loved.
And for the first time I fooled myself into believing that I, the miserable, could love someone!
What a fool am I!
Did I forget how sweet the pain felt? yes.
Now I dance in misery again,
Now I am home again,
Now I can rest again.
Oh sweet angst, I've missed you.
I'll never leave you again.
all his, she waits.
Why is he still looking back?
his forgotten lover still waits.
Oh, sweet jealousy.
anxiousLOVE HIM, LOVE HIM...WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!
- Location:@ my bed
- Mood: loved
- Music:Rachmaninoff - Piano Concerto no.2 (II)
sucks.
'nuff said.
I'm so pissed off...I think I won't be able to take a course I want ;-;...
Student Loans & Financial Aid suck too... everything sucks. bye.
- Mood:
busy - Music:MISIA - Liberdades Poéticas | Scrobbled by Last.fm
So...Summer it's over and it was pretty boring, but some cool stuff happened.
Starting off...I aced my first class in college!...Yeah, I took a summer course...it was likeeee...musical theory, solfege, blah blah...it felt great!...I'm LIKEEEEE...so smart...omigaah!...I also made some cool friends in class...yay!
I got a JOB!...I just got a job as a bariste, I'm so excited! I get to make coffee and pretty art with milk...lol. I've been in training for two weeks now, it has been super cool and super bad at the same time. It's cool because I get to do art and shit; it suck because I have to taste EVERY SINGLE DRINK ON THE MENU...I end up dizzy and with such a sugar high it's not even funny. The opening of the store is due on Wednesday, I can't wait!
In other news...Breaking Dawn. Breaking Dawn has been the highlight of the month and probably, the year! (now that HP movie was moved to next summer). OMG!!!...I know I was slightly disappointed by the book, I mean...it was TOO HAPPY...come on!...but I still loved it!. I went to Borders on August 1st and spent the day there...I was #19 to get the book at midnight...lol...Well...yeah...Breaking Dawn...fuck, I just loved it.
On a musical note...I got to sing in the choir of Beethoven's 9th!...it was SUPER COOL! I'll never forget it...It was part of the inauguration ceremony concert for the new campus of the Puerto Rico Conservatory of Music (on which I'll study, starting September). It was hard work, but it payed off...It was great. yeah...Ludwig rulz!
I can't wait for school to start!...
I WAS SINGING THEREEEE!!!!
- Location:@ my livin'room
- Mood: curious
- Music:Kanon Wakeshima - Kuroi Torikago
You are allowed to place three items from your lifetime into a box that will be opened in fifty years. What do you put in, and why? Submitted By |
I think I'd just write a letter about my life.
but if I HAD to put three things in...I'd put:
a) my iPod, because music is the most important thing in my life.
b) a picture of my boyfriend and me, because he is my other half.
c) a program of whichever opera is it that I get my first staring role; this still hasn't happen, but I know that before fifty years go by, it will!...I know
- Location:@ my room
- Mood: contemplative
- Music:Cecilia Bartoli - Vivaldi: Sposa son desprezzata | Scrobbled by Last.fm
- Mood: calm
- Music:Yum!Yum!ORANGE - Smile | Scrobbled by Last.fm
vanilla soy milk, chocolate soy milk, smart start cereal, water, wine, all kinds of cheeses (except american), puppy dog food, dog toys, dog stuff, garlic bread, celery, cherry tomatos, brocolli, stride spearmint gum, crepes, deli cuts, cosmo mag, orange juice, teas...
- Mood: curious
- Music:フィッシュマンズ - WEATHER REPORT | Scrobbled by Last.fm
Salut!,
My name is María de los Angeles, I'm 19 and I'm from Caguas, Puerto Rico. I'm a voice performance student at Puerto Rico Conservatory of Music. I'm always singing and laughing and talking and stuff. I'm just a very happy person...too happy maybe.
I live with my parents, but I'm hoping to get my own lil' place near school by next semester, first I need to get a job to pay the rent and stuff. I think I'm ready to live by myself...
I have a boyfriend, Kristian. He's the greatest thing ever, I love him a lot...He's mine, my prince, my everything. He makes me grow everyday. Best guitarist ever! Love him to pieces. Mi cuarta! (only a musician will get that)
I'm a big music fan. I love music, I can't function without music...I enjoy listening: opera, minimalistic music, avant-garde music, oriental music, j.pop, j.rock, k.pop, trip-hop, lounge, etc. I love Philip Glass music; some people think it's overrated, but I love it...I don't care.
I love Japan and Japanese fashion and Japanese food and Japanese pop culture and Japanese everything...Never been there, I wish to go someday and learn the language and stuff.
I don't know where my obsession came from...I just feel I could just be happy there...
some things I like...
- water
- studying
- singing
- sex
- power sleeping (sleep for 12 hours...or more)
- to groom Ravel
- being on my own
- hand sanitizer
- baking
- ramen noodles
- fine dinning
- rainy mornings
some things I hate...
- being in crowded places
- TONSILLOLITHS!!!
- phlegm
- summer
- not having any hand sanitizer
- not having any new music
- not having water at hand
- the fact that I'm no good at sex (lol)
- being barefoot
- gaining weight
- Mahler
I think this makes a pretty nice ''first blog'' blog. I think I'll leave it here...sorry for being so messy writing, I just...bleh...
Ciao~!
- Location:@ mom's room
- Mood: silly
- Music:Morning Musume - Koi no Victory
